That was the point. The point in time that I knew I had a choice. I could either be annoyed and continue with my story about this lady who did not have awareness or consideration. Or I could get curious. The thought came as clear as someone saying to me, "Maybe you are supposed to talk with her. Maybe she has something to share with you. Maybe God or the Universe has put her in your path to teach you something."
My wheels started to turn. There is no new thought, idea, creation, that is not the result of an experience or interaction with a person, thing or place. Therefore there is no complete original thought. Right? So what is the difference between copying and being inspired?
How to know if you are making decisions and living your life from your information or others. Who is dominant in your space? Who is in the drivers seat of your life? Through meditation clear your energy system creating space for you to hear your self and live a more joyful life.
What seems like yesterday, I had an experience which was pretty awaking. I was sitting on my bed one afternoon playing with my two small beautiful children. I got a glimpse of my hands and became mesmerized by the memories that started to unfold. Images from when I was a small child, a young fearless woman out in the world, independent and so connected, aware of who I was.
We all need to refuel ourselves. Sometimes it would be nice to have a visible gas gage to show when we are getting close to empty. Because when we are close to empty, that is the time when it can be the hardest to recognize that we need a moment, or what we even need to get recharged. This is not living my friend. This is just surviving.
All the sudden the noise is silenced, the kids are content, responsibilities put to rest for the moment and I have my opportunity to enjoy my space. The space I have been daydreaming about. And I get lost in it. I fumble around. Act on the first few things that come into mind. And ultimately waste my precious free time being so excited to have it that I can't remember exactly how I wished to spend it.